so, i just got back from camp, and cricket, so i'm so sorry i haven't been online to talk to anybody. i will be sending a few pm's to people i follow, so i can make friends c: but i would love it if you did that to me too.
i have a story to tell.
it's not about me.
it's about someone i know.
but i learnt something from them during the time that they were going through this, and i kind of wanted to help you too.
a lot of us want to have someone who we can call 'ours', the one that we have feelings for, and want to be with, no matter where we are.
sometimes, you feel as though you're not.. like everyone else if you don't have a boyfriend/girlfriend. sometimes, you think you like someone, when it's clearly your mind playing tricks on you.
my friend, she truly believed she liked this one guy; she even thought that she liked him so much, that she asked him out. unfortunately, after just one day, she realised that there wasn't anything between them - that there was no spark that she thought they had.
she told me: "he's nice, and sweet, but when i'm with him, i feel nothing. and when i see (name removed for privacy) i get nervous; i get butterflies, i shake, i stutter, and none of that happens with my boyfriend"
she spent the night crying, because she felt as though she was a bad person for leading her boyfriend on. if you feel like that, let me tell you this one thing - it's not your fault. feelings like that come and go, and whether you like it or not, whether you like one person or two people, feelings take time to grow, or to go away. you can't change the way you feel about someone with the snap of your fingers.
in the end, she broke up with her boyfriend, because she felt as though it wasn't right to be with him, if he felt something, but she didn't. and that's where i learnt something. if you're in doubt, don't over-think every single thing, do something! talk to someone - as hard as that can be, sometimes it's the best thing. this is a time where you can worry about you, and you need to do that, instead of worrying about what others will think. take care of y o u r s e l f .
okay and i don't have a taglist either, so if you want to be on it, either say, or you know... let me know. i'm not too sure, and i'll probably end up making a like if you want to be on my tag list set anyway.